Sleeping babe’s

Today I took a nap. It was wonderful. Naps have been rare for me mainly because of working in the afternoons. They are even more rare because I have a 10 week old and a 3 year old. And yet, they are even more rare than that cause Addison has Acid Reflux. So laying down hurts, sitting propped up hurts, slouching in a bouncy hurts. Sometimes the only thing that helps is being wrapped in Mamma’s arms, sitting straight up and down. (Then she gets a nap and I don’t!) Addison has finally turned a corner with the Reflux. (THANK YOU JESUS!) Napping is easier (for her that is!) Playtime is more and her favorite new activity is smacking on her hands!

 

We came home from lunch today and Addison was hungry She isn’t too keen on eating any place but at home. Bottle followed and she fell asleep, out like a light, when she was done. So precious. Smart Mamma puts her down and tip toes away. Less than ten minutes later, she is awake and crying. As soon as I pick her up, she is out again. Well, I figured I would take total advantage of it so we climbed in *bed together and slept. It was sweet, so precious. It was a moment I think I will always treasure. Laying there looking at my sweet little girl without struggling to get her calm. It was a special time.

 

 

*Yes, I know that Dr.s do not recommend babies and parents to co-sleep. We didn’t do it with Alexis because of that. We co-sleep with Addison out of necessity.

Today, I believe. Tomorrow, I will still believe…

Faith is not something that comes easy to me. I don’t think it is something that comes easy to anyone! The past 9 months have been the most difficult Gary and I have gone through together. (That story will come later! Believe me, you will be encouraged!) But through it all, even when we didn’t see any light at the end of the tunnel, the Lord has been faithful! Even though I have seen Him work and provide for my family countless times these past months, I still struggle with my faith.

 

My struggle started when I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes in 1995. Since then I have been praying for healing. The church I attending through high school had a bit of a revival of sorts and many times, I felt I needed to take a step and go off my insulin. My sugar would go up and I knew that the time for healing was not then. As a kid, its a bit crushing when you expect something to happen and it doesn’t. “When the Lord Closes a Door, Somewhere He Opens a Window.” This saying is so cliché but I really believe it! If it was the Lord’s will then he would allow me to move on it whatever it was. If it wasn’t then I believed the Lord would shut the door and he would show me what the next step was. He has done this for me and my family time and time again!

 

Its very easy to get down and out when you don’t see an end to your struggle. Keep trusting. Keep believing. Keep having faith! Things will change and an answer will come. Remember, the Lord works in his time, not in ours.